Officially Lost

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There is a blanket of sadness covering our hearts. Many are desperately searching for an explanation (anything)about why a young man committed such a horrid act.

I have turned to God in a despairing attempt to get answers. Listening to Christian radio every chance I get, waiting for a message of comfort.
What I heard today broke my heart. I seek answers about why such travesty’s happen in the first place. I know it’s not my place to question the why’s, nevertheless my mind is desperate to reconcile these facts.

The acknowledgment I got was a pastor preaching about how awful parents in America are. Deeming high divorce rates and absentee patents chargeable for severe trauma inflicted upon children when married couples separate. There was also an implication that mothers are no longer emotionally available for their children anymore leaving their children so love starved that they snap.

Please understand the gunman was mentally handicapped. He had a form of down syndrome, so his mental state had nothing to with his parents getting divorced nor was he neglected. In fact, his mother devoted her entire life to care for her son. She was kind, loving, and a 100% committed to his care and wellbeing. To say he’d been abandoned is just plain ignorant. We will never know what prompted him to act in such a way, still I refuse to believe it was because of trauma inflicted by a single parent household. (Also, I am not saying there is any link between down syndrome and violent behavior because honestly I have not a clue.)

So I’m left here contemplating my inquisition, saddened still with a heavy heart. Why would God allow evil to touch such innocence that were not given a chance at life. Why bless humanity with their souls to begin with? I’m officially lost.


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